Yet another Poem, but wait it’s a New One!

Hello again! I am trying something new tonight. I am going to try and write a poem off the fly. See if I can shake the rust out of my mind and soul and actually create something. It’s been quite a while since I have written, but I am going to see what happens.

Have I paid for the sins of my youth?
Have I come any closer to finding the truth?
The truth of life and the truth of love.
The truth that comes from the stars above.

I’ve put a part of myself in exile for far too long.
I’ve isolated my love of words and my love of song.
Surrounded myself with walls I can’t seem to climb,
Living a life that is more like a crime.

I am trying to forge a new path towards something new,
But also find the spark that made me see what I once knew.
It might take tears and it will definitely take time,
In the end it will lead me to the light and sunshine.

Well that’s where my words took me. It’s starting over and it’s trying to find my way and get back to my words and feelings.

Let me know what you think!

Tuesday’s Gone

Good evening all! Hope everyone is enjoying their week so far. It’s been pretty uneventful so far here. A typical work week with the typical stresses and misgivings. So I am finally making good on my promise to post more. Might end up being a rambling mess, but I guess you guys are used to that by now. Been active on Twitter lately. There are a lot of passionate people out there. They are concerned about the environment, politics, the future, their kids and all things that can make the world a better place. Those people are what the internet was made for. An exchange of ideas. Rational discussion on important issues. (I will admit that rational discussions can sometimes be few and far between, but they do exist). I am finding there is a lot of good and caring in people. I do try my best to stay away from the anger and hate that is out there. There is plenty of that. On this Tuesday night however, I am focusing on the positive. There is so much hate and bile spewed out over the internet. I suppose having such a strong opinion or outlandish stance on something gets attention, but I just don’t know what it accomplishes. Everything is geared towards emotional reaction and not towards rational thought. I know people need to be made angry before any actual change can happen, but it seems to me that the internet is weighted down with so much vile and reprehensible misinformation just to make one side look stupid or to make another side look evil. There is evil out there. It’s in every man and woman that allows fear and ignorance to guide their way through life. I suppose this post will just get out there and be lost with the other millions of opinions out there, but I do want to implore people to learn more about the world around you. Not just politics, but science, nature, math, history. There is so much wonderful information to be explored and exposed to us all. Read about it, try to interpret it the best you can. Do not allow yourself to be swayed by any talking heads. Ask questions! Learn! Do not let this wave of ignorance that is crashing upon our country take over. Also, try to help your fellow humans out. We are all in this mess together and the best way to do this is to engage with each other. This all has been on my mind recently, especially not just from reading articles on the internet, but reading the comments. It is so hard to believe we have lived and evolved on this planet for this long and yet, we still have people who hate so strongly over issues that any civilized society would just let go. Let people be who they are. Let someone have a difference of opinion without threatening them. Let people live their life the way they want to. (All this goes with the caveat that your lifestyle isn’t hurting anyone). Try to let this sink in. Go out, experience other cultures, other ideas and ideals. See that the world is bigger than any one country or one philosophy.

Well that’s what is on my mind tonight. I hope everyone has an great evening!

Poems Volume 3

Good morning all. I hope everyone is having a relaxing Saturday morning. It has been a hectic week for me and posting here was put on the back burner. I am trying to see what I need to do to liven up this blog, but I am not sure yet. I do want to do more reviews of movies and music and the occasional book. I just want to bring something new to the table but I am not sure just how to do that yet. So I decided to post some more old poems. I do enjoy sharing these and I it feels to go these out there. Maybe it’s vanity or just wanting some recognition, but it nice to see when these posts get as many likes as they do. I want to thank everyone who takes time to read them.

In this poem I suppose I was trying to be more of a “poet”, whatever that really means. This one wasn’t meant for anyone in particular, just an idea I had at the time.

Two hearts joined as one.
Two hearts beating in time.
Two hearts seeing the dawn through
Two hearts together down the line.

The day is here, the time is now
For love to unite in harmony and song.
Open your hearts and let the sound in,
Play this tune your whole life long.

Together is the word.
Forever is the design.
This love can move mountains,
Carry us though several lifetimes.

Two hearts together forever.
Two hearts finding love anew.
Two Hearts longing for each other,
Two hearts soaring through skies so blue…

This next one is a bit long, but I suppose I had a lot to say about love and the person I was deeply in love with at the time. We were never meant to be and I don’t think she liked the poems I wrote for her, but things tend to work out the way they are meant to. You can’t make someone love you. It is either there or it’s not.

The lights are dim, our glasses empty.
In the whole wide world, there is only you and me.
We sway to the tune playing on the radio
And steal a kiss by the fireside’s glow…

I’ve never been in love like this.
All my senses come alive with just one kiss.
We laugh in the sunshine and play in the rain,
We share in the grief, when there is pain.

You are my woman; my life’s pride.
You’re the very reason I’m still alive.
You heal my wounds and chill my fever
Take away my doubts and make me a believer.
Make me believe in love and all of it’s joy,
Believe in the magic of life,
Believe in the great hope of tomorrow,
Believe I can toss away my sorrows.

This love makes me strong, makes me feel like I belong.
I’m no longer a stranger.
I can breathe again,
I can finally begin my life.
I love you so.
I can’t let you go…

Just hold me tighter, hold me closer

Let me be near you as we grow older.
Don’t wake me, just take me.
Take me away, make me come alive
I need you here, right by my side.

That one was from a long time ago. A much younger me. I wonder if I could even write anything like that again. You see life and love from a different perspective at 48 compared to 25. Just something for me to think about.

I hope everyone has a great weekend! I will be writing again soon.

Trying to Change my Feelings About Monday

Good evening all! I hope everyone had a good Monday. The start of a new working week for the 9 to 5 crowd like me. My normal Monday morning routine actually starts on Sunday night. It starts with the soul crushing dread I feel before bed. That usually leads to either a sleepless night or at the very least a night with three hours sleep and horrible dreams. The latter was my night last night. I woke up after a rough night and decided that I need to change my way of thinking. I need to push through my day and not let work affect me so negatively. All that ends up happening is I get mad and frustrated. Guess what? Work stays the same. I’m letting my emotions get the best of me. That is what really did it. I am letting my job affect my general mood throughout the day and week. So I’m going to try something new. I’m going to just let it all go. Let the frustration and the aggravation go. It’s not going to be easy, but I have got to get control of it. Take it one day at a time and all that. I’ll update you all as the days pass.

That’s all I have tonight. Just a short post. There will be fun stuff coming and more poetry eventually.

Take care!

Bonus Post! A few more Poems

Good evening again all! I really didn’t want to leave just yet, so I decided to post a few more poems. Please let me know what you think. Please tweet me @mlctaskforce or write me at I would love to know what you think.

A lot of my poetry was about longing. The idea of the perfect love, fairytale love, timeless love. When I was younger, I was heavily influenced by the music I listened to. Van Morrison and Stevie Nicks were huge influencers in my writing. I really wanted to be a poet. I just didn’t know if it was any good, so I only shared it with special friends. The poem below is an example of that longing.

Remember when soft breezes blew
And it was just me and you
Running down that rainy avenue,
Looking for somewhere to hide…

Remember when we were so young
Our lives had barely begun,
Listening for songs that had never been sung,
And we were at peace with the One.

I remember the feel of your arms around me,
The comfort and peace it brought me.
I remember the days of wine and roses,
Autumn nights and secret proposes.

Remember when we stayed up all night
Shivering while we waited for dawn’s grey light.
Hoping and wishing that it just might,
Feel this way forever.

Remember how those midnight flames burned
While we tumbled together we learned.
And oh how our hearts yearned
To make this love feel real.

I remember the feel of skin against skin,
The electricity that flowed had no end.
I wish it was that way again,
Cause I need it in my life.

As you can tell, I was hopeless when I was younger. A romantic in a less than romantic age of the 90’s. To have seen me then and now, you would not know that I would write complete sentences, let alone poetry. It was there and I guess it is still there, but it is slow to find the light of day right now. The poem below reminds me of the young couple I saw get married this weekend. (See my previous post).

Love’s light is leading me forward,
Moving toward something all new.
I can’t believe the way my life was before.
So empty and lost…all without you.

Been too many nights sitting all alone,
Too many tears shed in vain.
But now those days seemed to have vanished,
Only days of hope and joy remain…

How can you love a man like me?
What do I have to give to you?
A woman like you is a precious thing,
A rare gem, one of the chosen few…

Your love is present from dusk ’til dawn,
Leaving me breathless and full of wonder.
I have never met a woman like you,
So many wild and beautiful things to discover…

I want to hold you and make it all right,
Soothe your troubles and ease your worried mind.
Weep not again and let your spirit soar,
Know that you are the best love a man can ever find.

You give me hope and promise of something fine,
A woman who know who she is, body and soul.
Can’t imagine my life without you, don’t want to try.
Just want to make love to you and lose control…

Stand beside me as the evening draws nearer,
Hold onto my hand and walk by the sea.

Let me tell you of all of your wonders,
Of all you mean to me…

Well that is all for tonight. I am going to wind down and gear down for Monday morning. Everyone take care!!!!

A Wisconsin Wedding Weekend

Good evening all! It has been a bit since I have posted, but I have been out of town and just got back late last night. As the title says, it was for a wedding that my wife and I took off to Wisconsin. This was our great grand niece on my wife’s side getting married to her true love. This is the first time in a very long time that I have actually seen two people truly in love. The wedding was outside on the most perfect summer afternoon I have ever seen. There were flowers everywhere and you could catch their scent whenever the wind shifted. The bride was beautiful. The groom actually cried as she came down the aisle. They both were so filled with joy and I hope for all the happiness in the world for them for their future. The whole weekend got me to thinking about lots of things. I was in a bit of a reflective mood. I think about these two kids, just starting out and the whole world is theirs for the taking. I have to admit I am envious of it. I mean who hasn’t wanted a do-over every now and then. I am talking about little and big decisions. What if I had finished college? What if I had kissed that one special young woman back in the past? What if I took more chances? I know I have twisted this from a beautiful love story into a selfish reflection about me. I think when you see the future in those young lovers, you can’t help but place yourself there. To travel back in time in your mind and rewrite history, ever so subtlety or maybe even do a total rewrite with a new script and new players. I saw these kids at the wedding reception, so full of happiness and love. They were dancing and acting crazy with their friends and just living in that moment. They are young and they know the world is theirs. I wanted to feed on that energy, that hope, that wreck less abandon they felt. Alas, time has made me more cynical and cold than any person should ever be. I think that is why part of the reason I started this blog, to explore and to find that person of my youth. Laughing and singing and just waiting for the next moment. I can emote better here than I can in person. Over the years, I have trained myself to hold back, to cut myself off from people in my life. Part of it is the nature of how I grew up, but I can’t blame it strictly on that. It is a conditioning I have embraced. Various things from my past, that are my fault, have made me build this wall. I a trying to tear it down, but it is hard to do. Seeing two people in love, which such a promising future exposed the fractures in my fa├žade. I truly wish them every bit of happiness the world has to give, but there is a little tint of green in these words.

Have a great evening!

Thursday Night Live…Sort of

Good evening all. Hope everyone is doing well! Not a lot going on tonight, just thought I’d not down a couple of random thoughts I’ve had today. Work was slow, so my mind wandered off a lot. So I think I’m going to start writing more. Not just on the blog, but more for myself. Start up writing my poetry again. I want to get back into it. This blog seems to be a good format for it. I received quiet a few likes for my last poetry post. (Thanks everyone who took the time to like my post). It was a confidence booster, I have to say.

I was thinking about just the times we live in today. Things just feel fucked. There is so much out there that is wrong. A cloud that covers everything and there is no light for us to lock on. I was thinking though, there is hope. Our youth of today will be the ones to fix what has been broken. I work with a lot of great younger people. They are smart, caring and are beginning to see just how rigged the game is. Millennials get a bad rap. They are smart enough to see the BS in our world and think that it can be better. It really gives me hope.

Not too much else going on right now. I really wanted to jot this down not just to ramble, but I want to keep posting. I want to get back to fun things too: movie, music and video game reviews. They are coming!

Everyone take care!

Republican Jesus

Good afternoon all! I hope everyone is doing well today. I’m going down again in some murky water today. I’m going to talk about Republican Jesus. Now Republican Jesus (RJ for the rest of the article), from what I have seen and read is a white male with a strong hatred for minorities, LGBQT, basically anyone not white. He’s also a Capitalist and knows that the USA is the only country that can make sense of this crazy world. He would totally against socialized medicine, education for all and let’s be honest, anything that involves people helping each other. RJ doesn’t believe in science, thinks birth control is a sin and that that the world is about 6000 years old. Sounds like a Hell of a guy, huh? Well if you listen to evangelicals and Republicans like Mike Pence, this is the Jesus people should follow. I’ll have to give Republicans credit, they can warp and twist anything to their own insane beliefs.

Now I need to let you know where I am coming from with this post to give some perspective. I’m not religious at all. I’m an atheist. Most of my life has been spent thinking that anyone foolish enough to follow a magic man in the sky, can’t be rowing with both oars in the water. I have soften my stance as I’ve gotten older and I can see there is a difference between someone who screams about how their God is the only God compared to the people who genuinely have a faith that pushes them and gives them comfort. There is a distinct difference. Once someone spouts out hate and bile about anyone different than they are, that’s when you have crossed over into a religion of hate.

How did it get to this point? How did we get to a point where Donald Trump is considered a good person by any percentage of so called “religious” people? I believe it is a mixture of ignorance, fear, homophobia, a blind love of Capitalism at any cost. Politics play so much into this as well. When you mix politics and religion you end up with the kid playing the banjo in the movie “Deliverance”. RJ is the result of all the bad that is in people. I don’t think anyone but a Republican Jesus would put kids in cages, profit from that and laugh all the way to the bank. I can’t see Jesus of Nazareth being anything like these people reflect. If anything Jesus would be kicking these guys out of office.

I think Jesus’ teachings are good. I think that one could live a peaceful life just following what he taught. I personally don’t believe the religious aspects of him, but I think there is a wonderful philosophy there that can serve people. To take it and twist it and ignore so much of it, just rile up ignorant people is horrible. RJ is the sum of all hatred and fear in man. Don’t let him win. Try to be good to each other. Help your fellow human out on this crazy road. Sprinkle a little understanding in your life. Think and feel. There’s too much anger out there as it is.

Take care


Hello all! it has been a bit since I last posted. been fighting off a sinus infection and I just did not feel like getting on and posting much. Not a lot going on lately other than being sick. That said, I am going to post a few of my poems tonight. I know there are a couple of you out there that read my blog and I’d like to know what you think. I am not one to use a lot word tricks or anything really clever, it is just basic emotions I have put down on paper over the years that happen to rhyme. So I will submit these now and I will get back to blogging more consistently.

The first one here is call “Moments”. I don’t usually title anything I write, but I felt this needed something. I wrote this many years ago when I was in college.

A Dream
A Sigh
A Wave good-bye

A Touch
A Kiss
A Moment of Bliss

A Spark
A Fire
A Tremble of Desire

A Hug
A Grin
A Quick thought of sin

A Hope
A Tear
A Sudden rush of fear...

You see, it is a simple poem, but I do think it says a bit about how and what we can experience, especially with that certain someone. A lot of my poems back in my younger days were about lost love, yearning, longing for that one true love. I suppose a lot of young men feel the same way. I had this jumble of emotions and confusion in myself and I wasn’t sure how to express it other than in my poetry.

Now this next one is also about love. It is what I thought the ideal love would be like. It’s very idealistic and probably not based in reality, but that is the great thing about love; it doesn’t have to make sense. It is called “Love is”.

Love is just one moment in time; yet it lasts forever.
Love is when two people meet and they realize that the other is the one.
Love is holding hands and stolen kisses on a long summer night.
Love is being there the next morning.
Love is elusive; but when caught, love never goes away
Love is confusing, but love brings understanding.
Love is looking into eyes and trembling inside.
Love is a living thing. It needs care and attention to make it grow.
Love is being there every day and every night.
Love is a flame that burns eternally.

I guess it is kind of sappy and hokey now that I see it written out again. I still think it holds true though. Love doesn’t change, the way we see it and feel it does however. Young love is full of passion, lust and energy. It is though long walks, those stolen moments of love when you are next to that certain person. Older love becomes more pragmatic and practical. It is just as strong, but you’re there for when things go wrong more, just because more can go wrong when you’re older.

I will leave you tonight with this last short verse. everyone has the capacity to love. It’s whether or not we believe in ourselves and allow ourselves to feel. That in turn, runs the risk of being hurt, but you can’t never love if you don’t try.

If you can breathe you can love.
If you can love you can give.
If you can give you can live.
If you can live you can love.

Take care all. I will be posting again soon.

Take care