Earlier today I tweeted that phrase in reference to how my job is the total opposite of a worthwhile endeavour. It got me thinking. What exactly would be an endeavour that would give me some sort of purpose and some sense of well being. Is there any one pursuit that can give a person the happiness and peace of mind we all crave? Personally, for me, I know that this feeling cannot come from a 9 to 5 job. There is no passion, no fulfillment from staring at a computer screen 8 hours a day doing some mindless repetitive job. Life is too short. Our minds and hearts should be filled with the wonder of the world. Learning, feeling, touching, tasting everything our world has to offer. I know this is a very idealistic view of life, but ideals is what it is all about. Living life, making things better than you left them. Helping each other get through life. We need to pull together and not push apart. I understand the realities of the world. You need food, shelter, money, security and all the trappings that come from modern life. We can’t all just quit our jobs and pursue our dreams. That is the real shame of it all. We can’t. We all have our own lives and with that life comes responsibility. That word responsibility is a heavy one. It comes in all forms: Spouses, children, mortgage, rent, your job. If you have any or a combination of these, you know that there is a toll that has to be paid to make these things work.
I’ve come the long way around to say I have no clue for me what a worthwhile endeavour would be. I know it has to be something that fills my heart and provides a passion to make me keep pushing forward. I am hoping it will come eventually. Life can’t always just be work and paying bills. There has to be something pushing and driving you to do something good and positive. You have to feel like it’s worth getting up in the morning. I guess that’s part of the reason I started this blog back up. Maybe by typing all this stuff out, something will click inside. I hope if you haven’t found it yet, you will very soon.
Take care
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