My eyes are closed, but sleep is a long lost friend I lay here wondering about my beginnings and my end. My heart echoes in my ears I am trying to hold back tears All I can do is keep my eyes closed And wait for the morning. My thoughts take me back to yesterday I can't seem to think about tomorrow. I'm stuck in this maze of my own creation, Not knowing how to escape. Some days are good, but a lot of days are bad, I have nothing left inside that doesn't make me sad. My soul is tearing apart as I get older I seem to grow distant and my heart grows colder. I sit and wait for the end to come While the world spins on its way. I feel numb and there's not much joy left Nothing feels like it should. I stumble through one day to the next And I wonder if this feeling will break. My head screams and depression rears it ugly head, Some days I just can't even get out of bed. I see the sunshine and I can feel its heat My belly is full, but my soul needs to eat. These days I exist, but I don't live I stare and look not knowing how to feel.